The day before christmas, and I am sitting in my favourite place in my house. My little backroom that looks on to the garden. There is a trampoline there now instead of flowers, but it is still my favourite place.I had wished hard to see snow, but it looks like it will be a green christmas. I like to sit back here and think, go on my computer. Currently I am smelling the ham that is cooking in the oven for tomorrow. Thinking about Christmas and family, and trying to make sure I remembered everything. Which for any that know me in the "real" world know my memory for some details are fantastic. The important stuff, well not so much!

Over the past few weeks I have been thinking about my grandmother - alot. We have had two christmases since she passed away, and no matter how long she lived, it does not seem long enough. This past week she would have been 91 years old. I miss her.

 Reading on a friends facebook  yesturday about her feelings for her recently passed grandmother, I started crying so hard over missing mine. I wish I had listened more, spent more time with her and loved her more. Life seems cruel to me, just when you are really at a place in your own life to be able to really listen, and see someone for how wonderful they are, time seems to slip away faster.

Over the past month, I have worked on this.. trying to listen to really hear what people are saying. And I have learned really amazing things.

So Merry Christmas to all who celebrate , and I wish you the enjoyment of spending time with those you love and being "present"  in your life. I will be remembering the ones I have loved, the ones who are with me and celebrating how very lucky and blessed I am.

I wish you all great love, peace and childhood wonder.