To be cheerful, pleasant, mirthful, lively, or brilliant; to Sparkle.
I have been trying to focus my thoughts, to learn a little about me. I mentioned this in my last post as well. I find that I need to slow down and take a true look into some of my shit (please excuse my language mom I know you read this).
I think I needed (and still do)sometime to reflect on what it is that I want, what I feel and think about hundreds of different things. ( very self absorbed sounding - but very necessary.) I was starting to fall into a trap of letting life happen around me - following just to follow, doing just to do. I have always been a girl with a purpose, the purpose might change but it has always been a core piece of who I am - having to "do", to "work" on to "fix" -- like I am broken or something. And while I don't believe I am - I do think some mending is in order!
A big help over the past few weeks is having a people to talk to about different parts of my experience with, people who know me in all different contexts. I have spoken with my mom, my husband, and my friends. I have taken all of their observations and then I have sat with what they said and thought about it , patience and insight and come up with ..... a few things - some of the following are their words, but they hit the mark.
1. My life does not happen to me, I am an active participant in the choices I make.
2. Do not live to work, work to live
3. Having faith in others to do the right thing, does not mean they will - people should earn your trust not just be given it.
4. My balance comes from setting my own agenda - and being accountable to myself for self development.
5. Guilt is often self imposed
6. Love is not always simple, and easy to understand.
7. Grief is circular
8. Not every story has a clear ending.
9. Life is not fair - so suck it up buttercup!
10. Laughter with friends is beautiful , silence with friends is grand -- life is who is in it with you!
3 comments:
I love our respectful silences. You are such a gift!
Thanks so much Faiza - for everything!
Being accountable to yourself and not just letting life happen to you is so important. We are all works in progress, and it's important to be conscious of the choices we make for ourselves. Keep working on it, and I will too!!
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